You are more than your grief.
The ailing of your grief doesn't define you or how you are doing, this is just part of the journey.
You are surviving, you are learning, you are growing, and you are healing.
Take a moment to remember something familiar that you love. Be it a person, a view, or something you love to do, and remember that the joy you have in that, shapes you, too.
Grief is complex, a myriad of memories of joy, some now met with fear; moments or injuries unresolved, all that was spoken and unspoken, and the ache of not having the person or the relationship to return to.
This is grief. It is a journey, a process with many ups and downs, shape-shifting often. Take your time. Go slow, open it up when you need to.
All of us have grieved in this past year, and sometimes now languishing. We will get through this. There is an ending point, a lighter space, light that gives life.